I know what you may be thinking my little dust mites, but I haven't failed you yet. I have been going back and forth to the doctor for about two weeks now and I was in no mood to write. There is some good news though, I don't know if I told you this but I lost 8 pounds then gain it back and then lost it again. I started at 238 and I am (drum roll) at 233 point something. I am so happy to see that I lost weight. I mean yeah it's a scrawny five pounds but come on it's something right?
     Now I have no problem with the doctor  and I am getting use to needles but god the one I had yesterday hurt. I mean first it looked like a sewing machine needle was going in my arm and it hurt too. Of course I had to keep my cool and not show any emotion but after it was all done my arm hurt worse than the needle. Which is weird because that has never happen to me before, normally it's a pinch and then a tiny bit of pain but that all, not this. And I got my new glasses which is like a breeze when ever I am looking through them. I mean any more and these glasses would be looking through walls that how clear I can see. So now I don't have to squint when I am looking at stuff and I won't have as many headaches.
      Any who, it is getting colder here and I am really loving it, I am so over summer and I am looking to see the fall and winter. I think the reason why I love the winter so much is, I get to see stuff that doesn't happen in my house. I get to see people enjoy their family and enjoy time with each other, I like the feeling I get when you walk out side and everyone doesn't seem to be unhappy. Even the smell is different when you go to places or see people's homes. I think also the big reason is I don't celebrate the holidays and I don't have family that comes to see me my sister and my parents. I like to see others have something and enjoy it, actually want it when so many don't appreciate what they have. It's okay though I mean I may not get physical present but I love the gift of watching others enjoy their families company and the gift of having my mom dad and sister. I know my mom and dad work hard to give us stuff but they should also should enjoy a holiday too. Who knows what will happen this year, I am just loving the winter coming.
     OKAY enough with the soap opera, I just thought that would be cool to share with my sexy little dust mites. Any way talk to you later dudes. bye!

Am I going to say sorry for not writing to you ? NO ! I was sick and then I had a family deal to go through. I lost seven pounds and then I gained it all back. I went to two different doctors, one for my lungs another to check other things. Of course I am not off medicines and I am still trucking through each day like a sledge hammer. But sometimes I feel like that is hardly enough to get through even a moment in my day. Any way I am not going to complain, I am going to let you sexy little dust mites know that I am still trying to stay on track everyday as I go. See you later guys.

Well I just wanted to give my little dust mites a bit of information before I went to bed. I am doing really well this week, and I mean well. I had little calories( I mean I ate, don't hurt me) and as a reward I lost four pounds. I mean I have been focusing on working out more and everyone at the gym has complemented my weight. They all keep telling me that I look slimmer since I got there and look how much weight I loss. It feels really good, I think the real test is when I put some clothes on in the dressing room. That will not be a real true test but I mean it's worth a shot, right. Well good night my sexy little dust mites.

    Don't you ever get those feelings where you think that one day you'll do something that will change your life. You feel like it's today but the only thing that happens is the same old thing. I think today was another one of those days where I thought that and it sadly didn't happen. I guess on the bright side I ate healthy, I had lintel and rice then I had an apple and I had dinner, which was lintel and rice, again.
    I am not complaining, I staid under my calorie intake and I feel great, physically that is. Not to get off subject but I think the reason for why I feel like this today is because I am searching for something to happen but I can't chose what to happen. I mean I sit here waiting for something to happen and nothing happens because I don't get off my ass and do something. I can't complain because sometimes I complain too much to even care. I don't know what I am talking about I am just going to stop right here so I can lay down and watch mindless television for no reason. BYE !!!  

     I didn't to a post yesterday because I was working all the way until 3am in the morning. I was so tired that I forgot to take my medicine and I was sleep all the way until 2pm. But fear not my little dust mites my day is full of stories to share with you.
  Lets see where I can begin.............. Okay I have nothing for today but I will have something soon. I have been binging the entire weekend and I think that I must have gained weight. It has been a lot for me since I have been working, and not to mention money is a little tight. Any way I am going to go now so I can draw some more and well think a little. Bye my sexy little dust mites.

     I know this is completely off subject, but I am turning 18 in four months and four days. I am moving out around 18-19, well when I get enough money for my apartment. I mean I am starting to think more like an adult who wants to look at every choice rather then a child who wants to jump into it. I mean it means a lot to me to know that I am becoming an adult but I need to think more on things than I did before. I went swimming for three hours or more and I had a little for calories. I had a cup full of pasta and broccoli with a soy patty, then for lunch I had a 380 calorie fish sandwich and then I had 380 french fries with a 120 calorie cranberry juice. And that was all from MacDonald( which was super yummy).


        I was so surprised that I swam so long and I was having so much fun. I mean I am like a fish any way so I wasn't that surprised. I am doing a little video for my drawings, so I can show you guys what I draw while I am away from the computer. I am going to go my little sexy dust mites, and I will leave you to think about what I said. BYE!

    I am happy, and I am going to tell you why. Today as I was searching the Internet I remembered I had to write something on my blog today. So as I got to my blog I saw this alert for a comment I got on one of my posts. I felt so good seeing that comment, it made me feel like someone was listening to what I had to say. I mean yeah my family looks at it but someone out side of the family tree.......well that feels good.
   So to give my favorite dust mites the scoop on my day, I had more cheese. I went to Chipotle and had me a burrito with cheese, which was really good by the way. Then I went to the movies and saw the Exorcist, which was okay. I mean it wasn't like super good I would go back but I mean the movie told you what happens in the south. So I went to the gym and I did what I like to call yummy yoga( which really was yummy). Then I went home and had me some pasta with rice cheese and sat in front of the television. I also been getting back into my drawing and really trying to improve my skills on my hand when it comes to drawing. I am really happy that this person placed a comment on my post, it really means a lot to me. Plus it makes me want to keep writing to my little dust mites( in my imagination).
    Well I am going to go to sleep and think over my day and what I want to do in the future and with my goals. Bye my cute little dust mites.

    Well today wasn't a great day(meaning for my goals). I know I shouldn't beat myself up but god I feel like shit today. I mean not only does every one in my house have an attitude I feel like shit. I had Mellow mushroom to state for the record my little cute dust mites. I had a mushroom and cheese calzone with a sprite. I never thought that I would feel like this after three days into my goal. I feel so bad I just don't want to even write this to you right now. I think I will do just that, I will stop here and allow myself some time to think, Bye.